when i say jump, you say how high
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I like nonsense - it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope... and that enables you to laugh at all of life's realities.
- Dr Seuss

I couldn't think of what to put here, so i just make do with a quote even i don't understand. -.-"
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
1:00 AM

The Most Beautiful Heart

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley.
A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared "How can he say his heart is more beautiful?" they thought.

The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared."

"Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks.

He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges.

The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.

They embraced and walked away side by side.

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"Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

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Feeling helplessly lost with each passing day. Only I can tell how sad i am. Running away from you seems to be a good choice. Getting to know you was the best thing ever. Only regret was on that day. Though it happened already, still regret it. Thinking of you always makes me happy. Even though sometimes it makes me sad too. Now everything's falling apart.

Because it's hard no matter how hard i try to get you out of my mind. Especially because you're very special to me.

Not letting go is hardest. Everyday i tell myself to forget you. Very few times i managed to do so. Each time i thought i managed to do so, Realised I hadn't.

Will i ever forget you? I doubt so. Loving you was hard. Losing you would be harder.

Going back home reminds me of you. On the way to school, i would look out for you. Hiding my feelings was a better option.

Finding someone like you is hard. It's harder to lose someone like you. Never had i forgotten about you. Nothing can make me forget you.

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no matter what, i am happy to see you being happy. wish you the best in everything that you do.
don't you ever be sad. stay happy and strong.

What can you not buy with money?
Answer: Love and Happiness.

Happiness: We rarely feel it.
I would buy it, beg it, steal it,
Pay in coins of dripping blood
For this one transcendent good.




Thursday, July 9, 2009
thursday 7:27 PM

today is thursday.
had temperature taking.
my temperature was 37.6degrees.
wow had to put on the mask thingy and go to the student hub.
another girl was there. liyana (2e4)
her temperature was also 37.6
okay had our second temperature reading.
mine: 37.3 hers: 37.4
then sit there for half an hour then third temperature reading.
mine: 37.5 hers: 37.6
wow. her parents was called and i was told to go back class.
wah was hoping mine would be 37.6 so i could go home but unfortunately no.
so good sia she can go home. nvm .
okay then school.
mother tongue got dismissed early. half an hour early. cool sia.
okay then after that went for acp.
had fun there. got sweets from mrs yong.
then went home




Wednesday, July 8, 2009
wednesday 9:28 PM

today schooled.
went to school saw felix in an awesome state.
he frectured his left leg.
sort of help accompany him at the foyer.
soon more people came but were asked to go to the class except for me.
then went to class with him.
haha mr goh so funny. while talking suddenly he said about the new chicken rice stall.
mr goh is a chicken rice fan. ^.^
okay then after school went off with jun,aaron and nelson.
jun went to serangoon central while me and nelson went to amk. aaron went home.
then eat at kfc. then back to bowen.
after that waited for the bus for about 10minutes. bus came. boarded it.
tap my exlink card. wow there's no more value in it. D: i had used up the money for topping up my card on something else. nvm shall only use max of $5 everyday. the other $5 will save.
damn my tuition was about to start in 15 minutes time and i had no coins.
wonderful.
then borrowed some coins from someone. THANKS THANKS THANKS.
quickly walked to the house. then went tuition but still late though. late by 15 minutes.
so tired.
haha felix was so happy when he found out another person was injured like him.
woo hoo ss test got 8.5/43. wonderful. i didnt study for this test. initially i thought i would surely get zero but luckily some i was able to do.
today's essay sure die again. didnt study again. nvm could write a lot but hopefully it answers the question.
http://www.eternalmoonwalk.com/




Sunday, July 5, 2009
asd 12:41 PM






Saturday, July 4, 2009
saturday 10:58 PM

today went vivo with friend. met at kovan mrt. haha i boarded to kovan when i could have just walked there. reached and saw farhan. intended to watch drag me to hell but if we were to watch it we would be separated so nvm changed to ice age 3 3D. while queueing saw this little baby in the stroller. cute baby with big eyes. cute sia. big and round eyes. nice and funny movie. the dinosaurs were cute especially baby t-rex's. eventhough i wore the jacket i was still cold inside the cinema. then she said she was cold. being kind-hearted i lent her my jacket. a few minutes later i started to shiver a bit. very very cold. then towards the end my arms started to shiver. wow. okay then went to whitesands.
had treatment. wonderful just wonderful it was 10x more painful than last time. sobs. :'( after the first thing my consultant angeline left me to rest first in the bed. i dozed off again. wonder how long i slept as she seems to be waiting for me to wake up. the moment i woke up she continued with her task.
then went home the end.




Thursday, July 2, 2009
thursday 9:59 PM

another day in school. nowadays i'm always sleepy during lessons. every subject surely will rest my head on the table and rest. well i hope this happens only for this week though.
okay after school had oral. sat outside and wait and wait and wait. wanted to go to the toilet. mr goh had to escort me there but in the end went to drink water only. he shouted at some students below for making too much noise.
okay then went in. omg was so nervous sia.
hm.. will i get penalized for asking the word crane in malay from the examiners?
hope not. asked that and they laughed. haha.
okay then went to slack around then off to mac and then went to some void deck slack. was quite cold at around 7plus. okay then soon went home. reached home around 8plus. .




Wednesday, July 1, 2009
wednesday 10:27 PM

nice acting today..
congrats. ^.^